Boys, Boys, Boys

Thank you Lady GaGa for the title. :)

I've been at home for a month now, and honestly, I'm kind of tired of being at home all day and every day.  I've been looking for a job but nothing thus far. I shall continue searching and applying after this post.

I've also been spending a ton of time with my brother and my dad because my mom goes to work in the middle of the day.  This is way too much testosterone to handle, especially after living in all-women's dorms for the past four years.  Sometimes I feel really left out when they are talking about stuff.  I also hate it when they are watching TV, and they don't listen to me. Seriously. Is this how it's going to be like if I'm married? Maybe married life isn't for me, but I really want a family one day. Bah. So frustrating.

Where are my girlfriends at?! I wish I had friends here in Elk Grove.  I'm so lonely here, which is probably why I spend an excessive amount of time on the computer to try to stay in touch as well as apply for jobs.

Alright back to the job hunt.

Halfway There.

Can you believe that it's June tomorrow?! 

It's mind blowing. 

I really suck at keeping this blog updated. I have great ideas for it too but constantly seem to get distracted with other projects (i.e. The Adventures of Rick and Tarra, job applications, CPB continuity documents, working out). The list could keep going. I've definitely been keeping myself busy this summer, even without a job. I only wish that I was more organized with my day by setting aside time for each tasks.  Definitely need to take some more breaks off the computer.  Probably gaining weight and losing muscle by sitting here. Boo.

ANYWAY, my buddy Rick found this cool project from Sam who got it from Colin that I may be interested in starting.  It's called Project 365, and you take a picture every day for a year.  You can add a little text with it for some content and keep it like a journal.  I think it's really neat, and probably something I'd like to start as I go through the struggles of post grad life. I just need to finish off my other projects first or really just get more organized. 

We'll see what happens. As for now, it's time to apply for more jobs.

Have a happy Memorial day!

Why...

...do I suck at school all of a sudden? I'm positive it's Senioritis.  It's hit me hard this time around.  There's just so much that needs to be done in this final month of school that it stresses me out.  I'm like stressed all the time.  I swear, it's not good for my well-being or those around me.  I'm really bummed that I'm not the student that I used to be.  I just want to take a break, which is why I'm taking a year (or two) off from school.  I just need some time for myself and to rejuvenate in preparation for what ever step I take next.  Well, better get back to work and get some things done.

I just feel like a MAJOR FAILURE right now. :(

Just Realized...

I have written 30 blog posts on The Adventures of Rick and Tarra blog, and there's only 44.  Rick needs to step it up a bit.  I think I might need to take a break for a while from it, considering the following:

1. It's the last month of school.
2. I have a TON of things that need to get done before graduating.
3. I'm graduating.
4. I need to figure out things for graduation (i.e. tickets, announcements, moving, post-grad travel, jobs/internships).
5. I'm constantly tired (no, I don't have mono - I just don't sleep).
6. I need to take care of myself so that I survive the rest of this semester.
7. I need to seriously concentrate on preparing for Confirmation (I don't feel as ready as I should be).
8. I need to write for my numerous communication assignments.
9. I want to spend some fun times with my friends before leaving.

Why did I make this last semester so hard on myself?  I have no idea.  I thought I could handle it, but I'm constantly disappointing myself.  I feel like I'm disappointing those around me as well because I'm sure my failures affect my professors, my classmates, my friends, my parents and more.  I also think I'm not living up to God's goals for me.  Everyone expects so much out of me, and I'm not delivering.  So much pressure.  I can't handle it, which probably explains all my emotional breakdowns. Shoot.

But I do enjoy writing in that blog.  I think I just need to update immediately, instead of days later.  We'll see. Let's buckle down and get down to business!

Less than a month of school left, and I will be a college graduate. (Whoa...that's weird to say).

New Blogging Adventures.

I decided to start another blog up with a friend.

We're constantly in the library seeing people we know, so we thought it would be fun to start a blog about that, complete with pictures and videos. We just finished day one. It's a good start...

Check it out: The Adventures of Rick & Tarra

Changed View.

You know those moments when you see someone you really respect do something that's out of the ordinary that it changes how you view that person from now on? Yeah, that just happened.

Okay that might be a bit too dramatic. I don't think my perspective has changed that much. I'm mostly just disappointed. I'll still be friends with this person nevertheless. I just feel like when I see them that image will come up, and I might act a little differently around them.

Before this instance, I felt like they had so many good things going for them. Good group of friends. Good morals. Good manners. Involved. Kind. Funny. Interesting. Creative. Smart. Hard-working. Motivated. Cool.

Oh well. People have their secrets. It's just finding out about them that can be a disappointment.