...do I suck at school all of a sudden? I'm positive it's Senioritis. It's hit me hard this time around. There's just so much that needs to be done in this final month of school that it stresses me out. I'm like stressed all the time. I swear, it's not good for my well-being or those around me. I'm really bummed that I'm not the student that I used to be. I just want to take a break, which is why I'm taking a year (or two) off from school. I just need some time for myself and to rejuvenate in preparation for what ever step I take next. Well, better get back to work and get some things done.
I just feel like a MAJOR FAILURE right now. :(
05 April 2010
04 April 2010
Just Realized...
I have written 30 blog posts on The Adventures of Rick and Tarra blog, and there's only 44. Rick needs to step it up a bit. I think I might need to take a break for a while from it, considering the following:
1. It's the last month of school.
2. I have a TON of things that need to get done before graduating.
3. I'm graduating.
4. I need to figure out things for graduation (i.e. tickets, announcements, moving, post-grad travel, jobs/internships).
5. I'm constantly tired (no, I don't have mono - I just don't sleep).
6. I need to take care of myself so that I survive the rest of this semester.
7. I need to seriously concentrate on preparing for Confirmation (I don't feel as ready as I should be).
8. I need to write for my numerous communication assignments.
9. I want to spend some fun times with my friends before leaving.
Why did I make this last semester so hard on myself? I have no idea. I thought I could handle it, but I'm constantly disappointing myself. I feel like I'm disappointing those around me as well because I'm sure my failures affect my professors, my classmates, my friends, my parents and more. I also think I'm not living up to God's goals for me. Everyone expects so much out of me, and I'm not delivering. So much pressure. I can't handle it, which probably explains all my emotional breakdowns. Shoot.
But I do enjoy writing in that blog. I think I just need to update immediately, instead of days later. We'll see. Let's buckle down and get down to business!
Less than a month of school left, and I will be a college graduate. (Whoa...that's weird to say).
1. It's the last month of school.
2. I have a TON of things that need to get done before graduating.
3. I'm graduating.
4. I need to figure out things for graduation (i.e. tickets, announcements, moving, post-grad travel, jobs/internships).
5. I'm constantly tired (no, I don't have mono - I just don't sleep).
6. I need to take care of myself so that I survive the rest of this semester.
7. I need to seriously concentrate on preparing for Confirmation (I don't feel as ready as I should be).
8. I need to write for my numerous communication assignments.
9. I want to spend some fun times with my friends before leaving.
Why did I make this last semester so hard on myself? I have no idea. I thought I could handle it, but I'm constantly disappointing myself. I feel like I'm disappointing those around me as well because I'm sure my failures affect my professors, my classmates, my friends, my parents and more. I also think I'm not living up to God's goals for me. Everyone expects so much out of me, and I'm not delivering. So much pressure. I can't handle it, which probably explains all my emotional breakdowns. Shoot.
But I do enjoy writing in that blog. I think I just need to update immediately, instead of days later. We'll see. Let's buckle down and get down to business!
Less than a month of school left, and I will be a college graduate. (Whoa...that's weird to say).
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